On the weekend I talked to my sister about not being in my wedding party but my other sister will be in it. She took it a lot better then I even thought. I mentioned she could come to everything and still wear a special dress and same color as the girls but not be in it. She could be the MC if she wanted to and she was happy. She said financially she couldn't afford it and she won't feel pressure to do everything. Also mentioned to me that she doesn't know where she will be living time we get married and doesn't want to committee to events if she can't come.
I feel 100x better now that I talked to her and I can give my proposal boxes this weekend to my friends!!