Ugh. I hate feeling like this. I was just recently in a wedding show this weekend modeling dresses for a dress store here in Thunder Bay. I always get super excited to partake in these and feel good about myself.... until I see the pictures of myself later on. I try so hard to be body positive and love the body that I have but after these events it takes a big ol' stab at those feelings and makes me feel polar opposite. I am over weight. I know I am. I have always been. Looking at these pictures make me really worry about how I'm going to look on my wedding day in my dress. I don't know if its the hair (which is disgusting and I would have never done it like this because I hate having my hair up as it makes my face look SUPER round) or the fact that my face is really shiny from sweating from changing in and out of one wedding gown or bridesmaids dress to the next within less than 30 seconds. I was alright with a few of the pictures that I've seen until one of my coworkers tagged me in a photo from one of the photographers that was snapping photos. Now I just feel flat out disgusting. I think it's time to make a change. I don't want to feel this way the day of my wedding or feel this way when I look at photos later on of the day. The only problem is I can NEVER stick to anything because of my insane schedule. I just don't even know what to do anymore. Sorry for the rant. I'm just feeling lost right now. *Edited* I also just found a picture from the jewelry company that we were wearing during the show and I'm the only model cut out of the pictures... yay me *rolls eyes*
I hate this one
Another one
I have no neck...it's alllllll chin