Hello WW,
Well here is my post regarding Covid and our October wedding! While we have not officially postponed yet, (we always said we will wait until July and we are going to) I just am not seeing things turning around in the next few weeks to give us the confidence to go ahead.
When Stage 2 was announced in AB, we felt like its as a hopeful sign. The number of people went up and wedding ceremonies/receptions were back on! However, this week our venue sent us an email outlining what a pandemic wedding would like this October if restrictions remained in place and it was awful:
- No sitting at the ceremony to encourage social distancing
- No bar service
- No dancing
- No singing (my dad was going to sing for us instead of a speech)
- No buttered cocktail hour or self serve late night snack
- 6 people max to a table
The list goes on - we were so focused on the # of people that could gather, we just did not think much about all the other restrictions in place. Seeing it all written out for us, CRUSHED me to be honest. I felt utterly defeated and hopeless in having our wedding this year - how on earth are ALL those restrictions going to be lifted in the next 3.5 months. I just can't see it happening, not when the world in general is still seeing massive case numbers and the virus is still circulating etc. So unless a miracle happens in the next couple of weeks, I think we will be postponing to 2021.
Thankfully my fiancé is a rockstar. Yesterday he spent hours calming me down and helping me see how postponing (while sad) is not the end of the world, and that we are in no rush to be married - wouldn't it be better to wait to have the dream wedding we want? And then as well, we discussed being able to switch our focus on things we were waiting till after the wedding for (such as buying a house this year!) and taking some online courses I want to switch careers etc.
In addition to all that, I realized how much this is tainting my pre wedding experience. I do not feel joy, I do not feel excitement, countdowns terrify me, I don't even want to talk about the wedding to anyone because it makes my stomach turn etc. Like how awful is that? Of course there is always pre wedding stress but at least its stress with an underlying feeling of excitement knowing your big day is coming up! Right now its just stress as to what will happen in the next three months, and will our grandparents be at risk, and will people have to wear masks, and what if we go into a lockdown just before again etc etc etc.
I apologize if this post seems hopeless, I just had to get it all of my chest. The last three months have been such a roller coaster of emotion from denial, disbelief, anger, frustration, depression, and sadness. Up until yesterday evening, I felt like things were so out of our control and it felt crushing to be forced into postponing. What an awful feeling!
But to end on a positive note, I think I am able to change the narrative to we CHOSE to postpone so that we could have the wedding we have dreamt of, and now we are just getting the chance to focus on some other things, re shift our priorities etc.
Plus FH and I came up with some bonuses to postponing, such as he finally agreed to take professional ballroom lessons for our first dance! And my bridesmaids have said they would be relieved with postponing so they could plan a more epic bachelorette for me (all three of them lost work due to COVID) so that helps knowing they would be less financially stressed. AND we could also get to hopefully have our honeymoon after our wedding like we wanted to (where as this year, good luck travelling) etc.
If you made it through all of that, thank you! Thank you to Wedding Wire Community during this crazy time. We are all in this together brides and grooms 
