Hi everyone,
So I am starting to become concerned for my mental health. Our weding is set for second week of May. During this whole process I have been so so flexible. We postponed once already from last fall, and we are determined to keep our new date no matter what .. this has been our mindset and still is.
I planend for the worst which was "grey lockdown zone" and was open to anything. It made me so so happy when restrictions for grey lockdown zone on outdoor patios were eased, as muy reception was supposed to be outdoors. Then they annoucned the lockdown.. dealt with that, cried, replanned.. etc. THEN they announced the stay at home order... but i was atleast still happy my church was 15% capacity and alot of people could be at that part which is the most important to us anyways... NOW we even got that taken away and its just ten people which doesnt even include our entire bridal party, or our brother in laws...
I fee so defeated. Everytime I think i planned for the new scenario and come to terms with it, something even worse gets announced. Its gotten to the point where my mental health is suffering. I dont know what to do or how to deal.
I know we are still getting married that day with our immediate families in the church, we are still dressing up, etc and we are very against doing a party later. I was fine with everything but now that i got the church 15% capacity taken away i find myself spiriling. I even tried to move it up to this upcoming weekend because i just need to do it and stop feeling this way leading up to it, but we decided to just wait until our date since its a few weeks away anyways.
I want to feel happy leading up to my wedding in these next 2 weeks but with all these curveballs, especially right before, i feel exhausted and i wake up feeling anxious, with nervous pit in my stomach all day... and theres not even a specific reason why.
Does anyone else feel this way?
